.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

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June 28, 2005


This is for Ching (there, your color :P) my dearest! Bestfriend! I LOVE YOU so much! Thanks for brightening up my day. And I absolutely adore the cd. I rushed home just to listen to it. Haha. Thanks dearie! You've been awesome! Just when I was missing you so much, I received love in the mail :) I'm so glad that our bond transcends time and distance. I know we haven't been as close as we were in secondary school but I'm so happy to know that NOTHING can ever break this bond of ours (and I'll make sure of that :P). A big thank you honey!! I love you!! Shit, I can't say how much I love and appreciate you sugar!! You kick butt!! Heh. And you know what sugar, I miss your crapping and I wasn't glaring at all while reading the letter (in fact, I was in tears) Heh, so I'm still as emo as ever! Ahhh I love you!! XOXO

To the rest who promised me presents in the mail, -glares- :P

I'm going insane! You! Stop treating me like a girl who can't tell when a guy's thinking with which head! I CAN TELL! And I'm NOT the kinda girl you think I am. Don't come treating me like your girl when you've got a girl, and honestly I don't care for that. You wanna go on that guilt trip, don't drag me down with you. What I have is open, unlike you, so stop it! I don't need you to take ANY responsibility or take care of me, I'm perfectly capable of making my own decisions. I'm THIS close to slapping you!

And thank you for being supportive! It isn't easy but we can defy the odds (:

-shuffling my birthday cd from ching ((:


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June 25, 2005

Reason is one thing, but it pales in comparison to instinct, emotion and heart.

I'm missing my lst a whole lot. All your voices, hugs and kisses, my remedy, albeit ephemeral. The talks - flawed logics, help meliorate this addled mind. I need you guys here with me now! Through this tear-shrouded vision, I just wanna say I miss you guys so much, and I love you all.

It's all so capricious I know

-playing to be the one - ryan adams


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June 21, 2005

The only drawback to being somewhat "with" someone who's smarter than you's that they just make you feel more stupid and lazy than you already are.

Now I miss MelW a whole load cause she always has a comeback for when I talk like that

-playing big brother on tv


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June 18, 2005



it makes or breaks

-playing behind these hazel eyes - kelly clarkson


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June 16, 2005

I'm sorry for the outburst. Now what about defying the odds that distance and time do "wonders"?

-playing phonecall


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June 12, 2005

Just when I thought I was strong, detached and different from before, the memories of *you reduced me to a crying heap.

-playing i'm still here - vertical horizon


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June 08, 2005

Just got off the phone with Yang awhile back. Love and miss you boy!! <3

Address: 5704/570 Lygon Street
Carlton VIC 3053
Australia
Landline: 613 95086509
Cell: 614 13550883

Cell's dead so I'll check back on that. And yes, singapore number still works, with roaming and all. But since my cell died (stupid fucking nokia), I won't be able to check any texts much less get calls. More updates.

In all shamelessness and for the sake of being an attention whore, my birthday's coming up in 24 days (that's July 2 for you)! Cards, gifts (even phonecalls) are very welcome!!

-playing death and destruction - weezer



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June 05, 2005

I just realized the one thing I miss most being away is the loss of physical contact. The warm tenderness of a hug (everyone who's given me hugs), of light butterfly kisses (that cute boy) and kisses that reach down into the pit of my stomach (thinks wistfully of the emobabybro). I don't crave love the way people do; I'm just too broken. I turn to that physical touch which, at home, helped me cope. Now I'm just lost without those touches!

Procrastinating killed the dedications I intended to do online. Maybe I'll come back in a bit to do dedications.

For an update on my life, I'm just anticipating the helluva party I'm gonna have come monday (when the folks leave). I know I do sound ungrateful and self-absorbed now but the rationale is that if you're gonna send me here to be independant then what's the point of unpacking for me, cooking for me and whatever else. You're just stifling me and eating into my space! Excuse the desultoriness of this post, it's 1130am and I've gone a week without fresh air! Oh that and the fact that the Sahara has migrated right here on my skin :
-playing Universal Audio - Delgados


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