.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

May 04, 2005

Life isn't supposed to be too complicated isn't it? But unfelitiously, everyone has to make choices, and I made that trenchant decision. I'm not regretting it. But sitting alone at home, with Def Leppard playing really set the scene for a time of cogitation.

I might think about the life I might have had, the life *you might have had, if *we'd never met. But *our choices lead *us to *our future, and I made a choice a long time ago, without even realizing it. I don't know if my choice will leave me to die a decrepit troglodyte, but what I do know is that my decision came from my heart and I'm not regretting it.

And as much as I try to deny anything every happened between *us (in hopes that denial would one day erase any trace of feelings I have), I could never pretend that *we didn't happen, that I didn't fall in love with the (to me) perfect guy who I'd gladly give up everything for. I couldn't act like I don't lie awake at night wondering what *you've done that day, like I don't ache for *you every moment *you're not with me. I could never convince myself that I don't love *you. I don't even remember when it happened, when I realized that I'll never be able to stop loving *you. But I do know that loving *you has become normal for me. I have no other normal to go back to. This is it!

*you held my hand and then *you slipped away. and i may never see *your face again, so tell me how to fill the emptiness inside. without love, what is life? and anyone who knew *us both could see *you were always the better part of me. i never wanted to be this free. all this pain does it go away?
; then everytime i turn around, and *you're nowhere to be found. i know i got a long, long way to go, before i can say goodbye to *you. oh, i got a long, long way i know, before i can say goodbye to all i ever knew. to *you, to *you
from memory, there is no hiding place. turn on the tv and i see *you there. in every crowd, there's always someone with *your face. everywhere, trying not to care.

-playing long, long way to go - def leppard


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