.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
benji ching<3 daph epicurean marcus koh mel tan nana song xia yanqi eddie hui min junz michelle peiying sam terence* weihui annabelle anthony asher ashley belinda dunstan grace jingyi nikki adeline<3 ashley aurelia(: brian cheryl<3 cheryl ong eileen huimin izzie jamie jas<3 jia ker<3 marc mirah noven pearlyn ron rach rui sha shane theresa<3 wanling wyn yanxi val<3

.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

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April 28, 2005

It kills me that a freaking retarded imbecile (ie, me) has the audacity to attempt to finish a two year syllabus in two months. Granted I've skimmed through a substantial amount of stuff. Infelicitously, skimming through isn't enough, as I realized when I tried reviewing my work. That, coupled with distraction in the form of Nersesian's stuff that arrived at my doorstep this afternoon (which I got ordered off Amazon) doesn't help a single bit. Dear Lord, please give me more brain cells to absorb information, and the strength to put down those stunning works.

Had a talk with MelW about university while trying to re-cram my head with information. Again it kills that she has pretty much decided what she wants to major in. (Make that her and everybody else who is planning on entering a university within the next 3-5 years or so.) Doesn't help that the subject combination that I'm about to take opens me up to essentially every major/degree available, provided I meet the prerequisites. Stuck in between the arts and sciences is virtually like getting caught between the devil and the deep blue sea. And I know I'll never ever go into commerce. So where on earth does that leave me?

Again, I don't know why I'm pushing myself so hard. Dear God, please grant me the grace to stop aiming for the sky. I've disappointed my dad and I honestly don't think the folks are placing much hopes on me (besides the fact that they want me to graduate with a degree in any damn course), I feel I owe to someone (I don't know who though) to excel this time round. Dear God, please stop me from having these paranoidal hallucinations - no one is expecting anything from me. Why on earth do I then push myself. I suspect a certain reason which I don't care to mention here, at the risk of sounding more and more like a complete fcukwit!

Doesn't help that I just found something I wrote to *you wedged between *your textbook, which is still at my place (if *you've been wondering and actually read this, now *you know). And remember, if *you ever feel loved or needed (like right now), *you're one of the lucky ones.

-playing the perfect ending - straylight run


+..all cried out..+ . [12:58 AM