.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
benji ching<3 daph epicurean marcus koh mel tan nana song xia yanqi eddie hui min junz michelle peiying sam terence* weihui annabelle anthony asher ashley belinda dunstan grace jingyi nikki adeline<3 ashley aurelia(: brian cheryl<3 cheryl ong eileen huimin izzie jamie jas<3 jia ker<3 marc mirah noven pearlyn ron rach rui sha shane theresa<3 wanling wyn yanxi val<3

.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

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April 19, 2005

I'm supposed to be asleep right now. What with the splitting headache and bad sunburn. Infelicitously, I'm being haunted by thoughts of *you. Talked to Rik, MelW and Bry (for like 10 mins), and I've basically come to a conclusion. The general talk I had with two brothers kind of helped put things into perspective. But that doesn't mean I'm not distressed.
i don't mean to drag it on, but i can't seem to let *you go
I've always stressed that denial is a very powerful coping mechanism, and it's worked extremely well for me. Granted Rik says it's only ephemeral, it beats no relief I say. Feigning emotional and mental stability takes its toll. I'm afraid I don't have enough pith to go on fighting this battle. I really hate how my mind and heart simply cannot operate in tandem. They feel like separate entities that cannot coexist. It's like when the mind works, the heart just refuses to do anything and vice versa. Which brings this down to the crunch. When the once dormant entity decides it's had enough rest, it takes over and endeavors to undo what the other has pretty much contrived. I'm just maundering along. My brain has completely lost it's ability to function.
i've tried to go on like i never knew *you
I'm awake but my world is half asleep
i pray for this heart to be unbroken
but without *you all i'm going to be is incomplete
-playing incomplete - backstreet boys


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