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the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take
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April 15, 2005

I wanna blog but I have no idea where to begin so I ripped this off friendster.

1. are you serious when it comes to relationships?
` i used to be until i realized relationships are just a game and since i play to win, i guess you could say i'm serious about winning

2. are you afraid of commitments?
` no. and i absolutely abhor commitment phobes

3. are you a risk taker?
` i used to be irrational and thought with my heart. but experiences have taught me to be practical so i suppose i take calculated risks

4. what can you say about long distance relationships?
` pointless. enough said

5. can you love a person who doesn't love you?
` i can but i don't want to

6. do actions speak louder than words?
` duh! words are meaningless

7. have you felt/found true love?
` earth calling!! it doesn't exist (in the human form at least)

8. how can you feel that a person loves you?
` i'm numb. anyways, i don't think love exists. people get together to gain from each other. the way i see it, it's a business transaction

9. are you good in handling relationships?
` i suck at playing games yet i try so hard to win

10. willing to give everything?
` i would have. but i realized you can give everything and have the person push it all away. so what on earth is the point

11. best thing you've learned from loving?
` that all you can ever get from love is a love song

12. do you demand your loved one to change into someone else?
` i have lost the ability to love an imperfect person perfectly. besides, choose your opponent before you get into the game. choose the person you're gonna have the business transaction with and make sure he/she can give all that you need and desire. open your eyes

13. would you let go of someone you love?
` i don't and i won't. people throw me aside. nothing i can do about that

14. are you a one-woman man & vice versa type of person?
` what's the point of monogamy? the playing field is large. strive to win and annihilate everyone else.

15. is getting physical important in a relationship?
` that depends on the kinda deal that was cut doesn't it

16. how do you express your love to someone?
` i don't. i can't love anymore

17. what is the major reason of a break up?
` when the other person no longer feels the same yet comes up with a myriad of excuses in a sad attempt to not "hurt" you or to be the nice guy

18. most important ingredient/s in a relationship?
` the contractual agreement

19. ever regret loving someone?
` yes *you!

20. one thing you hate about love?
` it's a game where losing isn't an option

21. one thing you like about love?
` it's a game that makes life... well life

22. are you in love?
` yes, regretting it and ironically denying the existence of love

23.can you learn to love someone whom you don't love?
` why bother when you can draw everything from him/her then split?

24.worst thing in a relationship?
` it's a transaction where it isn't an option to be at the losing end

25.will you accept someone who broke your heart?
` foolishly yes. i don't hate *you. and it really doesn't matter what went wrong, i don't care. all i care about is the distance between *us. and yes i hate myself for this

-playing existentialism on prom night - straylight run


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