.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
benji ching<3 daph epicurean marcus koh mel tan nana song xia yanqi eddie hui min junz michelle peiying sam terence* weihui annabelle anthony asher ashley belinda dunstan grace jingyi nikki adeline<3 ashley aurelia(: brian cheryl<3 cheryl ong eileen huimin izzie jamie jas<3 jia ker<3 marc mirah noven pearlyn ron rach rui sha shane theresa<3 wanling wyn yanxi val<3

.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

April 18, 2005

I just got home. Head's spinning. MelW, you saved my butt. Thanks

All I can say about the sevens is that I should stop going. I still don't understand why Jamie did that. And I don't know what *you told her but seriously, *you expect me to be completely over *you? And Ja, don't tell me I didn't do anything about it. Cause when I did I got told to face reality. I can't handle this anymore. I got through one night without crying about it all but I can't pretend I don't care. I can't look at *you, and just be friends (friends isn't enough for me). Ironically, I want *you in my life so bad, I put on this air of indifference just so to talk to *you. It's an uphill battle ok! So what else do *you want from me? My cousin and me and two different people and if *you could only see what *your words meant to her (and what she said to me after talking to *you). *You wanna talk, tell it to my face.

I was just starting to act like I didn't give a damn (just like *you don't) but *you had to come around a ruin it all. ARGH! I can't deal with this anymore. Dadddddyyyy! Can I just leave for melbourne tonight? I want to get away from everything and everyone. Ah fcuk this. Ja, I thought I could count on you, I thought you were MY cousin. Thanks a million. But its ok, at least I know now who cares, who're the real friends I have. Thanks MelW, Rik and Bry (for replying a late night sms even though you had to be up early this morning).

-playing incomplete - backstreet boys


+..all cried out..+ . [11:50 AM