March 17, 2005
I put so much pressure and expectation on myself that I feel I'm gonna break down before I leave. This is my last chance to prove myself, I must do it. Yet being level headed hurts like mad. It hurts, I'm in excruciating pain right now. Please, will *you come and ease the pain? I suppose not, *you're too busy dancing and smiling with *your girl! And BryanKoh, thanks for reminding me again that I'd make the world's shittiest girlfriend. Damn you! Just leave me alone everyone!
*well in case *you failed to notice, in case *you failed to see. this is my heart bleeding before *you, this is me down on my knees. these foolish games are tearing me apart, and *your thoughtless words are breaking my heart
-playing foolish games - jewel
+..all cried out..+ . [11:52 PM