.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
benji ching<3 daph epicurean marcus koh mel tan nana song xia yanqi eddie hui min junz michelle peiying sam terence* weihui annabelle anthony asher ashley belinda dunstan grace jingyi nikki adeline<3 ashley aurelia(: brian cheryl<3 cheryl ong eileen huimin izzie jamie jas<3 jia ker<3 marc mirah noven pearlyn ron rach rui sha shane theresa<3 wanling wyn yanxi val<3

.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

January 03, 2005

Ker came over today. Decided I didn't wanna stay home. Ended up at her place with my LST. Long long talk. I don't know. I never felt so vulnerable. I don't even see why I bothered pouring my heart out when they're gonna be leaving soon. The people I love so much always leave me. ALWAYS! One left me for student council. Shit I hate that word! Now others are leaving me for school and NS. Great!

I wish I actually died in the tsunami. I wish I were there in Sri Lanka, Phuket or Indonesia. Maybe then people would know I actually once existed. Maybe then God would have seen that He had a daughter He somehow overlooked? I sound so bitter now. I AM! No one notices when they hurt you with their little acts of nonchalance and indifference.

I miss those times when I always felt God. When I was just so full of Joy and His shalom. What happened to that person? I see everyone around me, my friends, my brothers and sisters in Christ, all so full of Joy and so blessed. Then I see myself drifting further and further from God. It's true. The spirit is willing but the flesh is weak. So damn bloody weak. And what can I do. I feel like I'm talking to myself when I'm praying. He doesn't seem to be answering me. Sometimes I wish He wouldn't be such a gentleman. I wish He'd just be harsh with me and whack the senses into me. I wish He wouldn't be so patient with me and just scream at me. To wake me up with the harshes and coldest of words. I don't even know whether or not to be thankful that He's so patient and loving

all that i've got to pull me through is memories of *you
(am i really pulling through or am i thinking that i'm pulling through?)

memories of *you - yellowcard



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