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the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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January 17, 2005

Been thinking alot lately. About tons of stuff (okay, this might not be surprising to some people).

I find it so sad that some people spend their whole lives in that endless pursuit of degrees, high-paying jobs and the likes. I'm not saying that it isn't important. But my point is that THAT ISN'T ALL THERE IS TO LIFE! I just read a blog of an acquaintance studying overseas. And it's saddening that she has so much passion for the arts yet, she's considering dropping out and doing something more "commercialized" (business). All because she's WORRIED about her future. Again, this worry thing is getting out of hand. The same goes for my dad. He's so adamant on me doing finance cause that would mean a "bright future". And the way I see it, God is my provider!! Not that piece of paper everyone is hankering after. Not the bosses that some people kiss up to, not the managers that some people sleep with in an attempt to climb the corporate ladder. And honestly, is life nothing more than the paper chase and money!? Well for students it's the paper chase and later on, the rat race. As Pastor always says, so what if you win the rat race, you end up being the best rat! Has society degenerated to that extent? That people are no more people but rats? That feelings don't matter anymore? (Ok, this might be a personal thing but I feel that people in general are more interested in success and wealth than anything else.) I wish that people could see that their trust should be in God.

It's funny how the very things that everyone around me worries about, I cast to Him. Honestly, I'm only studying whatever I'm studying now cause I have to. And I'm not worried at all. Cause I believe that He will either get me out of this course I have no desire for, or give me the grace to get through it. This is seriously one area that I'm really nonchalant about. And the fact that I see alot of people worried and stressed about it saddens me. I pray for them. I do

Okay, there's more I wanna type. But it could get depressing so I shall save it :)) Jesus rocks my world! He never fails to amaze me. I'm amazed at how patient He really is. Though I fall and fail countless of times, He ALWAYS picks me up! Every single time. Never once has He left me there to rot and die. Thank You Jesus!!

I'm happy today :)) Carefree, relaxed and cool. Resting in the ark :)) Ker is a big fat irritating woman! She just got the powerbook I wanted :'( And we're now in the process of copying the 33 cds we bought today from MJ. We bought 33 cds for 150 bucks. Mega sale :)) All old cds though. I got almost all of springsteen and dylan's albums :) So now the Kohs are in my room, bugging the crap out of me while they argue about I have no idea what. Haha. Alrights, I shall be off now. Gotta open the dumb gate for Edgar. Yay!! We're gonna have a mini slumber tonight. I have no idea how I'm going to school tomorrow. But it's alright. It's worth it cause it's one of the last nights I'm gonna be spending with my sista!! I love that woman to pieces

[edit] I really need to stop cabbing everywhere :\ Seriously, comfort should give me some shares or something man, considering the amount I've "invested" in them :'( But singapore is too HOT to walk. I need my license. Daddy, can you make time pass quickly? Haha. I wanna turn 18 so I can drive! [/edit]


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