.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
benji ching<3 daph epicurean marcus koh mel tan nana song xia yanqi eddie hui min junz michelle peiying sam terence* weihui annabelle anthony asher ashley belinda dunstan grace jingyi nikki adeline<3 ashley aurelia(: brian cheryl<3 cheryl ong eileen huimin izzie jamie jas<3 jia ker<3 marc mirah noven pearlyn ron rach rui sha shane theresa<3 wanling wyn yanxi val<3

.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

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December 26, 2004

Spent Christmas Day with Benji, Yang and Yang's sis. Quiet christmas but I'm not complaining. Really. And to my life support team, I guess we'll NEVER get to spend christmas together. Always that will crop up -glares at babyboy- Haha. It's alright. It isn't the physical existence but the heart that matters yeah? I love you guys!!

I realize it isn't gonna be easy. And I sometimes wonder if memories really do matter? I mean, when you truly love someone (or so you think you do), do memories really matter? I seriously don't know how to put this in words. But I need to get this out. I mean, I know I don't need *him. I don't need a relationship right now. And I truly believe that Jesus loves me and I feel it. But sometimes the memories just upset me. I reflect on the relationship and all the what ifs start running about :\ Just like today. Sometimes I wonder if all the "I'm over *him"s are just me living in denial. Bah, I'm really tired. I need to sleep

And I suppose the greatest gift this christmas would be a greater revelation of His love for me. I really need it man. Though I go on about how all I want for christmas is *him, I commit it to Daddy. I'm tired and drained


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