.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

November 29, 2004

Tough decision. I don't even know what to base it on. On one hand, I see where my parents are coming from and I know they care. I know that I should respect and honor them. But yet, that means living the life they've come to "plan" for me. And I don't wanna do that. I have aspirations and dreams to, contrary to what people think.

I'm not as detached as I thought I was. I fooled myself into thinking that if I didn't care about people's feelings and just hardened my heart, my life would be better. You're right, this is a coward's way out. But you know what, being brave means loving a shadow. Being brave means being alone. And I don't wanna be alone. I want someone to care for me. To baby me. And since *he can't do that, I'm searching for substitutes.

Just came back from town. Kino-ed with Dad. Bought like 300 bucks worth of books -faints- I haven't bought books in months. Dad was like laughing at me, saying that I would never finish everything :\ I got this book on psych! Man, it rocks. And I just realized that my interests lie in things and subjects that are not practical in Singapore at all. Psych, Political Science, Sociology. My dad thinks I'm nuts. I think I am too. But at least that's more interesting than numbers, figures, and what not. Oh wells. I've postponed my decision to March.

./Spinning :: Thinking Over - Dana Glover


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