.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

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.haunted past

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November 11, 2004

Time Check : 10.35am (Wednesday, Nov10)

I'm happy with what we have. Why must we take it one step further? We have everything we ever wanted. Physical attraction and all without all the mess. Without the emotional tanglements. So why try for something else and risk ruining what we've got? Isn't this just beautiful the way it is? No pain, no tears

I don't care if anyone thinks I'm a slut. I don't care if anyone thinks I'm selfish. I'm just protecting myself here. Falling in love is against the rules of this game. And you've broken the rules. I really don't care if I don't ever put my heart out ever. Cause that one heartbreak is enough to put me off relationships forever! Don't tell me I can't judge by that one failed relationship. Cause I gave it my all and more. I put my whole heart into it and what did I get back? I got my a broken heart with pieces gone. Pieces *he's prolly thrown away. So please don't tell me to open myself up.

We have something beautiful right here. And I just don't wanna ruin it. Besides this is a good arrangement. We hook up when we feel like it and move away when we don't. Isn't it easier and fuss free? None of those promises and none of those i love yous. I like this. Yes, I've fully been converted. Now we stay like that or you leave. Harsh but that's just the way it works honey!

To my babyboy, thanks for standing up for me! -smooches- You are sweet you know that :)) And I promise you I won't say anything to her ok? So you can sleep easy babyboy! -showers with kisses-

Another note. I'm still searching for that fresh touch from God. I'm still searching for that one experience with Him that will change my life. I know I'm expecting something from Him during HM. I feel I'm expecting something but I don't know what. I guess Rachel (CG)'s right. Just pray and continue expecting


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