.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
benji ching<3 daph epicurean marcus koh mel tan nana song xia yanqi eddie hui min junz michelle peiying sam terence* weihui annabelle anthony asher ashley belinda dunstan grace jingyi nikki adeline<3 ashley aurelia(: brian cheryl<3 cheryl ong eileen huimin izzie jamie jas<3 jia ker<3 marc mirah noven pearlyn ron rach rui sha shane theresa<3 wanling wyn yanxi val<3

.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

November 14, 2004

This has just made me realize how fortunate I am to have such parents. Never thought I'd come to say this but yes. My parents are really nice and yes, I realized I am pampered :\ Dad called this morning. Asked about my results and I was like crying and saying that I really don't wanna do BFS anymore. And he was like 'ok. You take the 2 more weeks you have left to think over what you wanna do. And don't worry too much. And just have fun there. We will sort it all out. Call if you need anything else and if you need money. Remember to have fun.' Okay, I know they're merely words. Oh wells. I don't know. I compare myself to my cousins and I realize I am fortunate. I am blessed with a great family. And I've been complaining about how much they piss me off. When I've probably disappointed, frustrated and pissed them off countless more times :\ I really thank God for such a nice dad. As for my mom. I haven't warmed up to her as yet! Sometimes I just don't get her. Oh wells.

I really don't know what I'm gonna do. Right now, I have 4 options.

  1. Stay in Singapore and switch courses (Mass comms)/Do private
  2. Continue doing BFS
  3. Trinity/Taylors (Melb)
  4. High school (Canada)

Comments anyone? Its funny. Now that I've actually got a chance to go overseas, I'm reluctant. I'm always letting my emotions get the better of me. I should be practical this time round and set my priorities right. But somehow, I just don't feel like leaving everything and everyone. Yes, a part of me wants to run away from this all. But another part says stay on and be brave -sighs- I should actually stop all this thinking and just pray for guidance and trust that He will lead me!

i don't know what's worth fighting for/or why i have to scream/but now i have some clarity/to show you what i mean/i don't know how i got this way/i'll never be alright/so I'm breaking the habit



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