.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.haunted past

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November 16, 2004

I just wanna say a big THANK YOU to everyone who called, sms-ed, mailed or tagged (in this case, Sam). Thanks guys for your advice and comments. I have thought alot about it and have more or less decided. Before everything can be confirmed though, I gotta get back and talk to my dad about it.

A harsh mail from my dad really woke me up and got me thinking.
"I cannot but have to agree with her [my mother] about the lack of discipline on your part AND even with so much home support (Finances,laundry & ironing,food &shopping for groceries & cleaning of your bedroom and the living area called house and other stuff.),youstill fumble and have so much problems. AND all the above you'll have to cope with yourself if you are on your own,as well as study. So, with this insight,YOU and only YOUwill have to decide what you want to do for your FUTURE. You will have to decide whether you want toparty & have a good time for 4 years in Australia &then SUFFER for the rest of your life OR you want toWORK HARD for a degree & "party only a little bit,notsacrificing your studies" & come home with a degree &have a reasonably "GOOD" rest of your life." He really has a knack for making me feel bad and guilty -sighs-

I happen to think this is kinda funny though :\ "Also,in the meantime, DO SHOWSOME RESPONSIBILITY so that we, as parents are quitesure that you are able to take care of yourself & notbe an "UNWED MOTHER", a drug addict,an alcoholic ortake part in motorbike or motorcar races & get killedfor nothing or maimed for LIFE just to be part of thescene or just for some thrills." Lols.

It's weird. Now that I have a chance to go, I don't really wanna. Main thing is that I've been to attached to the whole church life that I have here, I don't wanna go and search and try to fit in there. Finally I've got a CG, serving in a ministry and everything else. I don't wanna give that all up! -sighs- Never really thought leaving was gonna be this hard :\ Oh wells. Everything will be confirmed when I get back

Anyways I just wanna say that I love you girls so much! 3-wayed with Drea and Heather last night. It was nice. Just to talk. Cali sounds nice girls but I'm pretty sure my dad won't lemme go there. Unless he makes up with that aunt of mine in Cali :\ And Ker. You are amazing you know that? I seriously dunno what I'm gonna do without you when you leave. And BryanKoh. Thanks my babybro! I think I've kinda made up my mind. And yes you'll be the first to know. My stupid babyboy wants me to go over to Berkeley with him. So we can travel during summer. As if I'm that smart :\ And to everyone else who cared, THANK YA'LL. Love all loads


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