.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
benji ching<3 daph epicurean marcus koh mel tan nana song xia yanqi eddie hui min junz michelle peiying sam terence* weihui annabelle anthony asher ashley belinda dunstan grace jingyi nikki adeline<3 ashley aurelia(: brian cheryl<3 cheryl ong eileen huimin izzie jamie jas<3 jia ker<3 marc mirah noven pearlyn ron rach rui sha shane theresa<3 wanling wyn yanxi val<3

.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

November 30, 2004

I just realized that talk is cheap and GOOD. Haha. Truly the best things in life are free. Damn, I'm getting so cliched here. But really. Besides it's the time of the year where I reflect and regret. Haha. I do regret stuff, though I always say I never ever regretted anything in my life. Lols. Had a long long talk with my life support team last night :)) You guys are wonderful, don't know what I'd do without you next year, with everyone gone.



Kel, Bry, Dan, Ker and recently Ed!! This is for us eh? The days of drinking and dancing the night away, in hopes to forget the shit going on in our lives, are OVER. Those days are gone!! I'm sick of it. Yes, we forget it for that one night, but we wake up the next morning with too much alcohol in our system and a bitch of a hangover. Then we feel stupid. It's the same with smoking and cutting myself. I enjoy the smoking and the pain. Then I feel like an idiot, cause I hafta cover up the smoke smell and the scars. Besides, with us scattered all over the world, I can't imagine drinking and dancing without you guys. Lols. But that's beside the point.

I believe we've all had a really bad year for a reason. To force us to grow up yea guys? We've pretty much grown more mature and closer as a group. I'm so thankful for the fact that we stuck by each other. Past the differences and the little quirks we hate about each other, we're tighter today than we were the beginning of the year. And it's really you guys who I can't bear to see leave. Man, our phone bills are gonna be so massive I'm telling ya. Lols. The point is that I love you guys so much! And I'm so thankful for you guys. Though we have our fights and what nots, we're still tight and we will be for years to come yea? Love ya'll.

Anyways, I'll be off to Kuantan tomorrow for 5 days. HM!! I'm really sorry I haven't spent enough time with you guys. Especially with Kel, Ker and Ed leaving in Jan/Feb! But believe me, whatever time we spend together is gonna be quality time aiights? That I promise you guys! I still have a ton of stuff to type. Reflections and all. But I guess the time's not right yet. I'll be back to update in 5 days. Take care everyone!

To my life support team, thanks for the support. And I believe 'I'll Always Be Right There' by Michelle Branch's our song. Lols

Babyboy, you've been a darling. And I'm grateful for what you've done. But I really don't wanna hafta make a decision. Go listen to Pieces!! Really, she wrote that song for you. Lols

Ching, dear thank you for everything. Maybe for once I'll prove you wrong? Haha. But somehow I have a feeling that you're gonna prove me right once again. Lols. And if you do, it won't be 95% eh? It'll be like 99% or something.


"i don't want to be anything other than what i've been trying to be lately
all i have to do is think of me and i have peace of mind
i'm tired of looking round rooms wondering what i'm trying to do
or who i'm supposed to be i don't want to be anything other than me"
(i don't wanna be-gavin degraw)



"the ghost of you and me/when will it set me free/i hear the voices call/following footsteps down the hall/trying to save what's left/of my heart and soul"

(the ghost of you and me-bbmak)

Yeap, I'm in the process of soundtracking my life. Anyone wants one?


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