.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

October 25, 2004

It's amazing. Spent a coupla hours with someone without bringing up a certain subject. Yes. Avoidance. Could tell we wanted to get it out. But neither of us had the guts. Probably cause we knew what the other would say. I should settle this before I leave. But honestly, there really is NOTHING for you if you stayed. So why not just leave? You know how I feel about *him. So yes. I don't see why you're making life miserable for yourself. I don't wanna say certain stuff cause I know the answers from BOTH of you! I know for sure what you're gonna say. And I definitely know what *he'd say. Sometimes I feel you're just here cause of the deal. The deal's just that - A DEAL! No strings attached!

Alrights. Enough. My head's hurting from all that thinking :\ Oh dad bought me a new jacket today. Wanted that corduroy jacket from Mango. But they didn't have it in black. So I ended up getting the long beige coduroy jacket. Not too bad but I don't think I'd wear it much. Difficult to match :\ Got a new striped shirt too. Not excited about my purchases. Btw, I got my Mango VIP card. It's a temp one though. Waiting for the official one to be mailed to me. Watched 'Ladder 49' with someone after he finished school. Quiet outing. Fear of the TALK! Met folks back at SRC for dinner. Gonna pack now. Couple more days and I'm gone. I kinda wish it was forever )':

[/edit at 2303] So we finally opened our mouths to talk -sighs- Still good friends. Still have what we had before. Benefits still there. Deal's still on. No strings attached. That's all I have to say. I don't know how long it's gonna last before we start the crap again. Shall wait and see!


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