October 11, 2004
I think I can just die now and no one would bother. Just got a phonecall. So now Ker's leaving for US next Jan for LIFE! And Bry's not going cause he's got freaking NS. Right. Another one gone. Who's next?? Yes, I'm sore! I was supposed to be the one overseas. And half of my friends who'e overseas now made last minute decisions. It's not fair! It's fucking unfair! I was planning it since I was in sec 2. And guess what, when everything was confirmed. My school in Canada, my lodging and all, my dad said NO! He wanted me to wait for results then decide. Great! And after promising me that I could go if I didn't get the school I wanted, he MADE me go to fucking poly! Argh!! His reason being I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WANT AND THAT I DON'T KNOW HOW TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF! Fuck! I know what I want. He just doesn't want what I want! Fuck fuck fuck! This is unfair. I think I'm gonna cry.
+..all cried out..+ . [6:08 PM