.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
benji ching<3 daph epicurean marcus koh mel tan nana song xia yanqi eddie hui min junz michelle peiying sam terence* weihui annabelle anthony asher ashley belinda dunstan grace jingyi nikki adeline<3 ashley aurelia(: brian cheryl<3 cheryl ong eileen huimin izzie jamie jas<3 jia ker<3 marc mirah noven pearlyn ron rach rui sha shane theresa<3 wanling wyn yanxi val<3

.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

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October 06, 2004

I seriously hate the frigging template. It's so screwed. The font's UGLY! Don't ask me why, I just love small fonts and I find mine too BIG! Now I hafta change the entry font using blogger. Doesn't feel like my old blog no more +cries+ I'm in a weird emo mood today. Case of missing someone too much I guess.

Now here I sit, so far away
Remembering all the memeories
Its times like these that I miss you most
Remembering when we were so close

Oh yes, my mom called from office. I'm leaving Oct 30th instead. Cause my family wants to go for a short break over the weekend to Seattle and they want me to go along. I seriously think that I do not know what I want. I made the decision to go in the first place, mainly to get away from everything. To be alone for awhile and to reflect on stuff. But now, I'm regretting. I don't wanna go!! Cause I realized I'm not gonna be meeting alot of people who I was supposed to meet! +cries+ I miss everyone! But anyways, any shopping lists or requests FAST!

And yes, did I mention that I'm basically miss FedEx or something. Cause I've got a whole big huge bag of stuff to bring over for them. And my aunt mailed me a whole LONG list of stuff to buy and bring over! Great! Not only do I have to carry it all by MYSELF, I have to BUY them and PACK them :\ Yes, I'm lugging TWO huge suitcases and a handcarry. Someone shoot me. Poor me :\ Thing is, only half of the big suitcase is packed with my things. The rest of the things are theirs. Cause I'm not bringing much clothes. Shopping there :)) So yeah. I'm basically doing courier service. And my parents want me to buy things back for them. And my brother wants me to buy a guit back for him. Since I'm going to states, he wants me to buy one from states +cries+ How am I gonna carry everything back? See. I'm complaining even before I go :\ Any kind soul wants to come and help me carry everything?

I'm not, not sure,
Not too sure how it feels
To handle everyday
Like the one that just passed
In the crowds of all the people

I seriously hate the Singapore education system. Why can't everyone have holidays and exams at the SAME TIME? Not that I care about my exams. But WHY? Why must poly students have holidays different from JCs and all? I feel so alienated from the world! From my friends! I don't know how I'm gonna survive this whole social situation for THREE frigging years! Did I mention that I'm basically hanging with a grand total of THREE friends who I meet up with FREQUENTLY -- Ker, Bry and Jas! I guess it's cause I don't mix around with people in school :\ How to, when I'm not in school? I hate you SINGAPORE EDUCATION SYSTEM! I seriously HATE YOU! Don't they realize that some people actually have lives outside of poly? POLY SUCKS! No offence to poly people out there and all. But I HATE POLY! I FEEL SO STUPID TO ACTUALLY BE THERE! +sighs+ I just realized that this entry's really long and fragmented.

./Spinning :: Hello Again - Hoobastank


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