.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

October 27, 2004

For the last time. I'm NOT okay. So stop messaging and calling 'just to check up'. I was alright until YOU came along. Just STOP ok. I hate feeling like I freaking owe YOU an explanation when I don't. One reason : I just like hanging as a friend, and yes, I admit. I enjoy those benefits. But those are benefits coming with what we have!! -screams- Look, even YOUr very own sister told me not to alright. YOUR OWN SISTER! Fcuk man! I don't wanna deal with this now. And I don't really care about throwing away these benefits we have. Cause it's all a game! When love isn't involved, it's not a relationship, it's a G-A-M-E, game! Stop being such a sore loser. Fine, if YOU really need an ego boosting, I LOST ok? I'm used to losing anyway. I'm used to getting freaking played anyway! One thing I don't understand is how YOU can give me all those advices about *him. How YOU can put up with me crying for *him and all. And now YOU tell me YOU want something more than we have. It makes me wonder. YOU're just here for the sake of being here aren't YOU? -screams- I DON'T WANT ANYTHING ANYMORE! Satisfied? The game officially ends HERE... Go and have YOUr nice life.

And I don't know if *you're reading this. Doubt so -sighs- I don't understand how I let you affect me so much. Why I think of *you day and night. And even dream of *you when I sleep. And really, it's *your indifference that breaks my heart -sighs- It's been what, 6 months and counting. While *you've probably moved on a million times, I'm still stuck here. Am I just retarded or what? Fcuk!

I'm really sick and tired of thinking. So really, if YOU're a friend. Just leave it ok? Let me continue being the idiot, loving *him and what not! Let me be the idiot!! LET ME BE IT ok? I'm kinda used to being called the stupid idiot and having people laugh at me

Disclaimer : YOU and *you are two different persons. And I'm sure YOU know who YOU are. Don't think *you read this anyway. (*him = *you)


+..all cried out..+ . [10:13 AM