Lost and all alone
I always thought that I could make it on my own
Since you left I hardly make it through the day
My tears get in the way
And I need you back to stay

I wander through the night
And search the world to find
the words to make it right
All I want is just the way it used to be
With you here close to me
I've got to make you see

That I'm lost without your love
Life without you isn't worth the trouble of
I'm as helpless as a ship without a wheel
A touch without a feel
I can't believe it's real...

And someday soon I'll wake
And find my heart won't have to break

Yes I'm lost without your love
Life without you isn't worth the trouble of
All I want is just the way it used to be
I need you here with me
Oh darlin' can't you see...
If we had love before
We can have it back once more

Shit. I hate you! I hate you! I hate you! How the fuck can you be so damn cruel, to leave me like that? How the fuck did you have the heart to do what you did? FUCK YOU! I feel like killing myself right now. For being so stupid, for still loving you and for NOT hating you at all. Not one bit!

Okay, pardon the language! I'm just frustrated with myself right now. And the worse thing is I seem so slack in school when everyone's freaking out over exams and projects. I'm planning outings and trying to drag people to hang. Apparently Ed feels I've changed so much after Paul. That cause of what happened, I'm a different person, so different he doesn't know me anymore. Maybe I've just always been like that? This indifferent, screwed up fuck that I am right now