.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
benji ching<3 daph epicurean marcus koh mel tan nana song xia yanqi eddie hui min junz michelle peiying sam terence* weihui annabelle anthony asher ashley belinda dunstan grace jingyi nikki adeline<3 ashley aurelia(: brian cheryl<3 cheryl ong eileen huimin izzie jamie jas<3 jia ker<3 marc mirah noven pearlyn ron rach rui sha shane theresa<3 wanling wyn yanxi val<3

.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

September 29, 2004

I'll be your cryin' shoulder
I'll be love's suicide
I'll be better when I'm older
I'll be the greatest fan of yours

I will be. But unless you allow me to be, I can't +sighs+ Songs have been screaming out for me the past month. Shit. Seriously, I laugh at my ability to smile though I'm crying inside. At my ability to pretend I don't care anymore when every night I'm crying out for you. I wonder where this is taking me. I know you don't care anymore. I know you never did care. Everything was a lie. But why do I want this fact to turn back into that big fat lie? No, I'm not living in denial. I know you don't care. I know you're no longer here. But I want you back in my life.

When you know
That you know
Who you need
You can't deny it
Or go back
Or give up
Or pretend
That you don't buy it

I can't fucking pretend that I don't care anymore. I can't go on living as if I don't love you anymore, as if I don't miss you anymore. Because I do. I still love you and I still miss you (God knows why!) I don't know what else to do. I wanna move on. I wanna move on simple because you don't care anymore. Because I know no matter what I do, how long I wait, YOU DON'T CARE and will NEVER CARE! And right now... I just wanna say that one day when I do move on, it will be cause your indifference has finally pushed me over the cliff and not because I don't care. Because I will always love you!


+..all cried out..+ . [10:50 PM