.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
benji ching<3 daph epicurean marcus koh mel tan nana song xia yanqi eddie hui min junz michelle peiying sam terence* weihui annabelle anthony asher ashley belinda dunstan grace jingyi nikki adeline<3 ashley aurelia(: brian cheryl<3 cheryl ong eileen huimin izzie jamie jas<3 jia ker<3 marc mirah noven pearlyn ron rach rui sha shane theresa<3 wanling wyn yanxi val<3

.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

September 19, 2004

I FUCKING HATE MY FAMILY! That bastard who apparently donated a certain amount of freaking sperm to a certain woman who contributed the egg which produced me is a fucking BASTARD! And no, I'm NOT gonna apologize for my language or my choice of words. Imagine being slapped acrossed the face, getting punched in your arms and having a REMOTE CONTROL hit you on the head. IMAGINE that? And tell me if you're gonna be apologetic about saying what i just said.

Life seems fucking determined to bring me down. And guess what, I'm giving in, I'm giving in. I'm sick and fucking tired of fighting it out with life. Have no more voice right now and I've got TWO presentations tomorrow. It's not helping that my thoughts still revolve around someone. I don't know how much longer I can take this anymore. Lord, help me! Lord, I don't know what else to do. I don't care what you do, how you do it, just do it for me Daddy!



I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered
And I wanted you to come and make me whole
Then I saw you yesterday
But you didn't notice
You just walked away


+..all cried out..+ . [9:01 PM