.the dark room
.haunted past
September 24, 2004
Can't go backCan't eraseBaby your smiling faceOh no, I can't think of nothing elsebut you
People have commented that I have no self esteem when it comes to certain matters. I always thought I was really egoistical? Ha. Once again, I've been proven wrong. It's funny how people know me better than I know myself. It's true, and once again, I'll admit that I don't know myself at all.
Read Ching's blog. Dear, you don't have to feel bad about not spending time with me. I understand, I really do. We have the whole of the holidays :)) Will give you ALL my time ok?? Miss you girl! All the best for promos ok? And don't think about unnecessary stuff right now alright? You have all the time in the world to think till you're sick of it. And about a certain matter, I hope your assumption is true :\ And I don't think your mind reading skills are going away. Just that you can't really read minds from such a great distance. Lols. Don't worry, you can try again soon. Take care!
Wells, to a certain person. I'm really in no position to comment. Cause I haven't experienced JC life and have no right to say which (JC vs poly) is better. So you think about what you really want. I'm sure you know who you are. Woman, don't gimme the bull about poly life being slacker than JC life. Honestly, it's what you choose to make of it. Look, certain people in your school as you are so damn stressed and your MC-ing your way outta school every other day and still scraping through. Same goes for me, people in poly are freaking stressing out over finals and projects and what not. And I'm going to school only 2-3 days a week, MC-ing my way around the system. It's what you want my dear girl! 'Sides, poly life ain't what you think it is. Really. People there are different from the people we're used to. So think about it. +grins+
Talking about this whole JC vs poly thing... I'm so damn glad that it is. Yet on the other hand, I wish I didn't have any hols. So poly life would end in 2 years instead of 3. Yes, that's how much I hate school right now. I used to love school. Not for school itself but the fun times and the memories. But seriously, I don't see any fun times in poly. Okay, besides the occasional dressing up days. But that's about it. People there are driven by a different force. It's like they live on a different planet. Or rather, I'm on a different planet. They know what they want in life. Sick of people knowing what they want 10 years down the road, and I don't even know what I want 10 months down. And I'm not much of a person who likes prep. I'm more like a last minute kinda person. Like I'd rather be staying up pulling an all-niter one night before my finals, go in and vomitting it all out. And you can't do that in poly. Sad but true. And everyone is hungry for the diplomas. I don't even want mine! Cause if I do get it, it's my dad's. NOT mine. I so don't want a f-ing diploma. I regret! I regret! I regret! I regret! I should've just gone to SR or JJ or whatever ulufied JC. At least its a JC. Fuck! Wonder if I could try transferring next year, or am I too stupid that even YJ wouldn't wanna accept me? I'm serious about this whole thing, but I don't know if I can
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