.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

August 01, 2004

This change is so difficult. Have we gone from having it all to being strangers who can't hold a decent conversation for more than a minute?

Have been having the worst week ever. And God has used this week to lead me back to Him. Yes, I've strayed so far off, I've turned my back on my Daddy. I'm still feeling like shit. But the difference this time is that I know my Daddy is holding my hand, leading me out of this darkness.

SonicFest yesterday. When I saw Paul there, emotions ran wild. I couldn't take being in the same place as him, breathing that same air and not be able to tell him how I really felt. I hated myself for putting on that stupid mask, tapping him on the shoulder and with a smile on my face, said hi. I should've done what my heart wanted to do. I should've grabbed him and held him close, tell him that I still do love him so much. What in the world stopped me? I only decided to go because he told me he was going. Why didn't I make use of such an opportunity?! Paul, do you know how much it hurt to be standing so close to you yet not be able to tell you how I feel, to act that I'm okay and that I've moved on?? Would you ever know how much pain you put me through? Would you ever know that I STILL LOVE YOU!


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