.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
benji ching<3 daph epicurean marcus koh mel tan nana song xia yanqi eddie hui min junz michelle peiying sam terence* weihui annabelle anthony asher ashley belinda dunstan grace jingyi nikki adeline<3 ashley aurelia(: brian cheryl<3 cheryl ong eileen huimin izzie jamie jas<3 jia ker<3 marc mirah noven pearlyn ron rach rui sha shane theresa<3 wanling wyn yanxi val<3

.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

August 22, 2004

I hate living my life the way people expect me to. How is it that another's decision affects your life this way? How is it that no matter how hard you try to fight for something you really want, it just goes further and further away? I'm tired. Really am. But somehow there's something in me that wakes me up the next morning, go through the whole routine of thinking of him and crying and feeling like crap. I'm tired of that.

There's tons and tons of questions that I have for him. I'm unsatisfied with the crap shit excuse he left me with. But I've tried too hard and I'm scared. Of another rejection. So I guess he'll never ever know how much I still do love him and how much he hurt me. Does oblivion make you happier?

Fuck! I don't know what else to do. I've tried ways and means to get over him. But I'm driving myself nuts thinking and thinking ever single minute. I want to move on. Simply because I know I longer have a place in his heart, or maybe I never ever had a place in his heart to begin with. I question so many things. And yet the answers will NEVER come. I don't wanna love someone who doesn't love me back, don't wanna love someone in silence. It hurts like fuck, not being able to express how you really feel.


alcohol + skin that's been freshly torn apart = escape from reality


+..all cried out..+ . [8:57 PM