July 29, 2004
this time it's for real. It's hit me shit hard. School's an eff-ing shithole. And I'm spiralling deeper and deeper into the bottomless pit of depression. I feel so alone. Cut off from the world. I don't even feel it when I cut myself anymore. It's become such a routine these days, I just don't feel any pain. I really do feel like killing myself. It seems like my faith is getting me nowhere. Or maybe it's this lack of faith. I don't even know what I'm doing. Have got half a mind to just drop outta school tomorrow regardless of whether or not my parents agree. Sick of waking up every morning, putting on an eff-ing mask, dragging myself to a shithole. maybe death is the solution for it all. i'm just tired. tired of everything that's going on. tired of constantly fighting with my parents cause of school, of crying my guts out everynight. of loving someone who doesn't give a fuck. i'm tired and i just wanna die. whatever
+..all cried out..+ . [12:37 PM
