.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

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.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

June 09, 2004

"Love is not about finding the right person, but creating a right relationship. It's not about how much love you have in the beginning but how much love you build till the end."

Even though I've put everything in the hands of my Daddy God. There still are 584905834908504 things that I don't understand. And I will never ever understand until the day we both sit down and talk everything out. Straighten up this mess, which would take alot of patience, effort and COURAGE! Will we be able to get to that day? Or will things be left unsettled like this always?

I don't understand how you can move on so fast when I'm still stuck here, loving you and trying to show how much I care.
I don't understand how you can let go of all the memories and everything we've shared when I'm still thinking of them and crying at the thoughts.
I don't understand why things hafta end up like that.
I don't understand why we didn't make the effort to try again.
I don't understand why you can be so indifferent about it all.
I don't understand how you can just let someone go when you claim you still love that someone!
I don't understand why I'm making things difficult for myself.

I finally know how it really feels like to have someone not even knowing you exist anymore. Going from being a part of his life to someone who doesn't even exist in his memory. It hurt. It cuts deep into the soul. It feels like I've lost a part of my heart. The very same heart that keeps me alive and the very same heart that I gave to you. I gave you my whole heart. And you returned it to me, a whole chunk missing, the remainder in pieces and expect me to piece it back on my own. I can't. I've fallen apart, without your love and support to hold me up.

If there's one thing I don't like about this whole thing, it's the fact that I'm still here while you're miles and miles away. On top of the fact that even though I place everything into God's hands, I still miss you like I do, want you like I always wanted you, miss you like never before and love you like I've never loved anyone.

Tired and drained. But yet, I still hope for you! Yet, I still want this to work out no matter how much patience and effort is needed. +sighs+ For now, I can only pray that God gives me the strength, like how He's always given me the strength that I needed to get through the bumps in life. That He continues smiling down at me and keeps me in His warm embrace.


+..all cried out..+ . [1:55 AM