.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

June 23, 2004

I'm screwed. Fucking screwed! My lappy's IE can't excess the school webby. And I start school in 5 days! Which means I hafta reformat the damn thing. AND lose ALL my pictures! Seesh. Screw this. I'm as good as fucked! On to better things

June 22, 2004
In other words, yesterday! Okay, started off the day damn tired and lethargic. Then I went over to SRC for the FREE LP gig! Hahah. Okay, so we couldn't see them like up close. So what, people who payed like 85 frigging bucks and stood right behind had to look at the screens too. It felt like VH1 live man! My folks provided us (Ja, Glenn, my bro and me) with 5 jugs of beer! Seesh. For 4 people. Hahah. Circle seats man. Okay, I'm just rambling on. But LP rocks man! I was so glad I went. Was so tired and tempted to go home. But I decided to go for dinner cause I was hungry and I ended staying on. Lols. Btw, Ja's my cousin and Glenn's her friend with TONS of benefits. Ha

Rights end of yesterday. Can't put down in words all the weird emotions I went through. Ja's gonna lecture me again for still thinking +shrugs+ Whatever.

Had orientation today. Was pretty boring and I tell you, NP has NO ventilation at all! Seesh, Climbing 'hills' the whole day was no joke. And it was so freaking hot. On top of it, I take an hour and a half at least to get to school and I gotta get to school tomorrow by 9. Which means I hafta wake up at 6.30. And for someone who needs sleep, I should've been asleep 2 hours ago. +sighs+ Just hoping that my timetable isn't that screwed up, like my emotions. And that my lecturers are nice enough not to make me sleep +yawns+

Oh btw, I am finally going to the doctor tomorrow. Been putting off this visit for a long time. Have been having gastric so often. Even when I eat. I don't know if it's gastric or whatever but it sure feels like it. And yes, it's been bugging me for awhile now. A month? I've finally decided to go have it checked. Pray for me ok?

Grrr. I could murder myself man. Stupid irritating heart of mine. Can't it just stay at peace for 5 seconds?? I keep catching myself troubled and shit. But +screams+ It just WOULDN'T stay at peace. IRRITATED! Keep thinking and thinking and what not.




It's easier to run
Replacing this pain with something numb
It's so much easier to go
Than face all this pain here all alone


+..all cried out..+ . [8:05 PM