.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
benji ching<3 daph epicurean marcus koh mel tan nana song xia yanqi eddie hui min junz michelle peiying sam terence* weihui annabelle anthony asher ashley belinda dunstan grace jingyi nikki adeline<3 ashley aurelia(: brian cheryl<3 cheryl ong eileen huimin izzie jamie jas<3 jia ker<3 marc mirah noven pearlyn ron rach rui sha shane theresa<3 wanling wyn yanxi val<3

.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

June 13, 2004

ENOUGH! I've had enough of you haunting me every minute of the day. It's gotten to the point where I don't have the mood to do anything. All I can do is think of you and try my very best to stop my tears. What a wonderful life. You wanted out, FINE. GO and STOP fucking haunting me! I don't know how much longer I can take this. I don't know how to deal with things anymore. I ask God to teach me. Teach me how to rest in His presence, how to let everything go. Yet, I wonder why everything turned out like this. Why everything happened. I just wanna let everything and myself go for real. Another depressional stage in my life. And this time, I'm fighting it hard, but it doesn't seem to be working. I wanna die.

Why do I still love you? Why do I still miss you? Why do I still want you back in my life? Why am I bothering after you let me fall to the ground?? I don't get it. I never will. Let drown in my own suicide, my own tears.


+..all cried out..+ . [8:33 PM