.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

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June 27, 2004

Alot of questions unanswered. And questions are just piling up. It's like they're never gonna be answered. Sighs. It's true. I want communion, trust, to be able to share intimate feelings with someone in a relationship. But will I ever find anyone in this world of deceit today? I've said before, I find myself straying from God so much more each day. As I drift further and further away from the safe place, my fear increases, I don't wanna get lost in this world. I wanna be able to turn to Daddy in times of trouble and see Him carry me through. But somehow I just don't have that strength anymore. I ask Jesus for that strength but something seems to blocking my receiving. It's as if I have no more believe anymore. Sighs.

I don't know the right thing to do anymore. I'm tired of living like this. Of crying my eyes out everynight. For drowning my sorrows in what nots. For letting the devil take advantage of my weaknesses. I just trust that God will lead me a step at a time. I surrender everything to Him. Too tired to wanna carry this on my back. I can't. Only He can


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