.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
benji ching<3 daph epicurean marcus koh mel tan nana song xia yanqi eddie hui min junz michelle peiying sam terence* weihui annabelle anthony asher ashley belinda dunstan grace jingyi nikki adeline<3 ashley aurelia(: brian cheryl<3 cheryl ong eileen huimin izzie jamie jas<3 jia ker<3 marc mirah noven pearlyn ron rach rui sha shane theresa<3 wanling wyn yanxi val<3

.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

May 11, 2004

Read my previous entry and I realized what an idiot I totally am. Well, I'm bored so I think I shall update about yesterday. Met Mel and Jia in town! Like finally. After like eons. Man, I missed those two crazy bungbos so damn much. Right, we basically just shopped. Actually, the TWO of em shopped, went over to see Yen at Gstar.

Went over to Lips after that. Sat around with ONE strawberry milkshake for 1 hour plus, until they started stacking up the chairs and all. We were the last ones left there. Just sat around talking. Depressing maybe? But basically, just spilling out guts. It felt kinda good to be able to just sit around and talk. Hmm, maybe because I haven't exactly done that in awhile. Convos with people these past weeks have been rather superficial. Don't know why but I'm just feeling like I don't wanna dump my shit on people and that the world doesn't revolve around me. Can't expect people to comfort me when they themselves are dealing with their own shit. Ah well

Was damn gian last night. The whole time in town, I had this nagging feeling in the back of my head. This wanting inside me. But thanks be to God, for giving me that strength to overcome my desire. I finally dumped both packs for good! And I'm glad.

It's hard to breathe when we're apart
You're like sunshine in my heart
I keep you here inside

You've been everything to me
You've been and always will be
The apple of my eye.

And I know it's hard to believe
You're still the biggest part of me
All I'm living for

I still think about you
I still dream about you
I still want you, and need you by my side
I'm still mad about you
All I ever wanted was you
You're still the one
You're still the one


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