.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

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.haunted past

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May 11, 2004

Oh, I just love the new layout of blogger. Okay, I digress.

Well I know I shouldn't be thinking this way. But I'm starting to let external factors affect me... AGAIN! I just wanna rest in faith but it seems so hard not to look at the visible and see that everything isn't going well. I'm just scared. Scared of losing my faith and the worst thing, losing YOU!

I feel so conflicted now. I don't wanna pressure you but yet I feel like I HAVE to talk to you soon. There have been many many times where I wanted to pick up the phone and just let it all out. But I know by doing that, I'll just be giving you added stress which you absolutely do not need at this point of time. I understand that your busy and all. But sometimes I just feel like I need to hear your voice or some words of assurances. And it's at those times where I feel like such a useless bitch. Like I'm so selfish and not understanding at all. I know that I should rest in Him, but somehow I feel like I have to do something. Ah, I don't know. I just feel like I'm so not understanding of the whole situation. The only thing I know now is that I DON'T WANNA LOSE YOU!!! I don't know why, but I just feel we can work things out. It's just a gut inside telling me to hold on. And I know I'm just gonna be here waiting for as long as it takes for you to come back.

+sighs+ I don't even know if you'll read this and I don't know if I want you reading this. Might be presurizing. Ah, I guess some things I just have to get off my chest. If you do happen to read this, and are feeling pressure, IGNORE it please! And I'm sorry for being so weak, useless, selfish and not understanding!!

From the heart,
I'm giving you everything, everything.
From the heart,
I promise you that I'll be there.
I'll be there to love you.
From the soul,
I'm showing you all I feel, all I feel is...
From the heart, from the heart!


+..all cried out..+ . [12:51 AM