.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

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.haunted past

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May 23, 2004

I miss him. I guess no matter how much I rest in God, if I tell myself I'm not gonna be thinking of Paul and missing him, I'm lying to myself. And yes, I'm still thinking of him up to this point. It hurts. But I believe my faith will bring me better days. Like I've said, I still believe strongly in God for this relationship. And I see it happening. But it's gonna take time. For now, I shall continue growing in the Lord and try not to do anything stupid.

And I'm NOT gonna cut myself no more. I listened to a message CD just now. And as I stared at my wrist, I felt disgusted at the sight of the cuts. I used to think that they were reminders of the hurt. But all I feel now is disgust and disappointment. I'm sorry if I made anyone of you worry for my emotional unstability. I make this promise here to every single person who cares for me and myself that I WON'T ever cut myself again! I don't need to resort to self mutilation or torture. All I need to do is turn to God and see that strength there! It's amazing how peaceful it feels just to rest in His presence. It doesn't mean that I'm not hurting. It just makes the hurt easier to deal with. Knowing that He's there with me.

Yes I know people might think I'm irrational. But I walk by faith and not by sight! 'Nuff said :))


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