.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

.triggered. 051404 052504 052904 "Ride Of Our Lives" tuition peeps school Odds and Ends Canada 2004 HIStoryMakers5!! Choir :)) hangin' and chillin' sevens'05 day 1 sevens'05 day 2 May 22. 2005 Trinity Camp at Rawson St Kilda Masquerade Ball


.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

May 22, 2004

I look at myself and I just feel like bursting out into laughter. Why do I even bother? Why do I even wanna try when he doesn't seem to care. Ha! What a joke! I've never fought so hard to get someone back before. Why am I doing this right now? Hmmm, maybe because I think this break up is crap. It doesn't make sense. It never will. When you love someone, would you let that person go if he/she doesn't wanna leave? Ha. What is the point of being rational? I just can't accept it. He could've said that he didn't love me anymore and I would've left defeated. But no. Since there's still feelings, I'm gonna try my best to get him back in my life. I don't care if I sound fcuking desperate or whatever. I just feel it's NOT worth it giving up something so wonderfull cause of lack of time. Sometime I'm pretty sure I can accept. Blah. I'm laughing at my stupidity. Ha. When he's obviously made up his mind. Nothing I can say will ever change that. But I WILL TRY! I WILL WAIT! It's not like I've never waited for him before. This is just gonna take wayy longer.

And yes, I know NONE of my friends support my decision whole-heartedly. Yes, no matter how much you guys say, you'll be with me, ALL of you think I'm dumb.


+..all cried out..+ . [8:22 PM