.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

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.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

May 30, 2004

I just woke up. And I still feel as crappy as ever +sighs+ I'm getting very frustrated with myself. Just yesterday, I had a dream. A dream that I really liked. But so what, do dreams really come true? Or would they happen in the opposite? Thoughts flooding my mind. And they're not making this process easier for me. Yes, I admit. I still do not want to let go. I'm just hoping that by saying I've let go, I really would. Something like self-convincing? I can rest, yes. But that doesn't stop my mind from wandering. And that's what frustrates me. Sometimes, I can't even discern the gentle promptings from what I want. Yes, I know the walk with God is never easy. But I honestly never thought it was gonna be this hard. I'm really really tired and frustrated with myself +sighs+

I don't know. My prayers don't seem to be working. I tell Him that I've put everything into His hands and that I just wanna rest but somehow.... +sighs+

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Jia<<< Thanks. I dunno how I really really feel but I hope I'm ok too!

Anonymous<<< Hey, thanks for caring. Means alot :))

Sha<<< Hey babe, you take care too +hugs+


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