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the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




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May 28, 2004

Haha. I read my previous entry and realized that it's so childish. I come across as being so immature. Haha. That's what happens when you act rashly and give in too much to your emotions.

Went for bible study today. And man, was it a good service. I must say it was one of the services that really touched me. Yes, all this while, I've been seeking and waiting for God to speak to me. To hear a voice inside. But all He does is prompt, whisper the gentle love secrets. And the thing about it is that He leads us by that prompting. And He will never force it on us, only remind us gently :)) How wonderful my Father is eh? :D

Even after all this, I just never learn. When will I ever learn that He is so wonderful to me. That my Daddy doesn't want me to labour and worry. All that He wants me to do is trust in Him and rest in His wonderful presence! Seesh. I just never learn. So what if I know that, I can never let go and just rest. I worry and worry CONSTANTLY! Even as I type this, I'm worrying. What if I made the wrong choice by deciding that I should just let go of the broken relationship? What if I'm meant to hold on? Argh. I'm so frustrated with myself. I'm very tired. All these worries are hindering me.

When will I ever learn to let go and let God!?



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