.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

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.haunted past

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May 25, 2004

Haha. I'm sucha joke. Just read through my previous entry and I just realized I sound like a L O S E R!! Ah, nothing new innit. ALL my friends have been telling me how loserfied I am dealing with this break up. Maybe I should just shut my mouth, stay home and cry my heart out! Ah, that seems like a great idea.

I just cried and cried like crazy last night. Pissed myself off big time. Been dealing with it well since Sun. Didn't shed a single tear, no matter how close it was. As I was watching Friends, something came over me, I just started crying (and I missed the damn ending. Fcuk) Just cried and cried. Even when I tried to pray for strength to carry on, I couldn't say anything. I was at such a loss for words, I could only cry out for Him and cry in His presence. But it made me feel so much better after that. Until....................................................

I really really hate Bugis!!!! Went over to meet Mel and Jia. The last time I saw Paul was at that fucked up place! In the train, leaving the station, it just felt like my whole life past me by. Like nothing ever matters anymore. Cause I've lost him for good! I can't take this anymore. I really need to talk to him. But when??! I feel like I'm gonna lose it soon.


+..all cried out..+ . [11:21 PM