.//cheryl-ann-
the beautiful disaster, hopelessly and recklessly needing the boy. giving this her all, the last semblance of trust left within. this is imperfection perfected, in her heart

[[she drowns in her dreams. an exquisite extreme, she knows. she's as damned as she seems, and more heaven than a heart could hold
she's soft to the touch. but frayed at the end, she breaks. she's never enough, and still she's more than one can take]]




.escapism
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.the dark room

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.haunted past

May 2004 June 2004 July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005

May 31, 2004

Enough! Enough! I'm really tired of everything. This is getting on my nerves. It is over. I no longer have a place in you heart, in your life! Why can I just understand that and move on?! +screams+ Yeah, I've let you go, but that's only what I know I have to do. It's not something I want. Yet, I convince myself that I want it cause I want you to be happy. Fcuk! I'm really tired. Everyday... I'm battling with my mind, with my faith. I'm struggling to keep myself afloat. Why?? Why do the best things in life always hafta end up like this?

It's like what Rik said, we're obviously on different pages of the book. You just don't see me in your plans. So why do I even bother? It's either I wait for you to turn the pages till you find me or I just shut the book and find another one. You probably don't even have the time to shut that book. It's probably lying around on that same page you've been stuck on. Maybe by chance, the wind might flip the pages right to where I might be on. But what are the chances of that happening? Unless you're willing to pick up the book again, nothing can be done. +sighs+ WHATEVER

Lord, why did you give me such a wonderful gift, only to take him away from me? I don't mean to question but at this point of time, I don't know what else to do. Yes, I must learn to rest that faith of mine in You. Maybe I just don't have enough faith +sighs+

Whatever! I'm tired. Sick and tired of this all. On to more "important" things. My tattoo! I decided to leave your name. Haha. Call me an idiot or whatever, I don't care. No one can change my mind. Hmmms. The problem is....... I don't know how to design it! Yup, point proven. Cheryl's one dumbass with no creativity! Kinda did one which I think is pretty nice if you split it up and look closely. But I bet everyone's gonna say it looks like "ceq" instead of what I want it to say. Lols


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